I gave dating a break after that. I still cruised on Manhunt and played the match game on OkCupid but no one was going to get my attention when I had two bottles of two-buck-Chuck to kill every night. I started to make it a game with myself to see how much I could drink before I went to bed. My next jaunt into dating was a man from OkCupid named “Dave” and Dave was a very tall Asian man who appeared to be more masculine in photos than he was in real life. I arrived in the Castro via the train and had been bundled up with a scarf and jacket because it was cold on my side of the city. The sun was out in town and he had a short sleeve shirt and flip-flops on. First interaction in person:
Dave: You’re all bundled up!
Me: It’s cold and foggy in Daly City!
Dave: That’s because of all of the rice cookers.
I didn’t expect him to make a racist joke so soon but he went for it right out of the gate! We had brunch in a cafĂ© in the Castro and he was nice. Not my type, we had little to nothing in common and he had a terrible flakey lip situation. It was not cute. The following day I had settled into the cold that was hitting me the day before and I got a Gmail-chat message from Dave with lots of emoticon smileys and things. I told him I was sick with a cold and he responded “Cuddles! J”. It sent shivers through my already sickly-feeling body. Cuddles?? Who says that? I didn’t know how to respond with a rejection without actually saying it out loud so I said, “My cat cuddles.” He just said, “Ouch.” We never spoke again.
Since the OkCupid route wasn’t going my way and I was damn tired of being a gay-virgin (because the tragedy that was sex with Teach was not and still is not being counted as intercourse…in my opinion) I put all my eggs in the Manhunt basket. I found a gorgeous headless torso that liked my headshot enough to unlock his naked picture that had his face…sort of. His body was amazing. We exchanged numbers and decided to meet one day. While shopping in the grocery store one day I saw a checker that I had met on the college campus with my friend the year before. He was adorable and had a boyfriend when I met him. I went through his line to check out and tried to talk to him like he was my friend and he responded. He was a huge flirt anyway but I bought it. I went home and stalked his facebook, sent him a friend request and after he accepted made no move at all. I didn’t know what to do next. I had never asked someone out before. The Teach and the dude from my second ever man-date had made the first move. Shortly after he sent me a message asking why I hadn’t asked him out yet. Stupid me. So I did.
The morning of my date with the checker, hereby known as “the Pixy”, I woke up very horny. I had no intention of trying to have sex with the Pixy on our first date but the sexy stranger from Manhunt would do. I sent him a text asking if he wanted to come over. He responds saying he has a business lunch but he has about thirty minutes so I gave him my address. I had never done anything like this in my whole life. He called and said he was downstairs so I run to let him in and he is tall, dark and super hot. He is in a button, tie and slacks that are tailored to perfection on his ridiculous body. We walk inside and he says, “Where’s the bedroom?” I show him into my room and he grabs me and kisses me. I’m stunned because he is that hot. He starts taking off his clothes so I do the same and he throws me down on the bed and goes down on me. He takes a break and crawls up and kisses me and then faster than lightening strikes he was sitting on my face. It was so fast I cannot describe. Here’s a first. Kinda shocking, kinda hot, kinda confusing. He then went back to his original position and did the same to me…but for like ten minutes. Ridiculousness. I had no idea anyone would ever do that and I was happy to have met him. He looked like he was certainly ready to fuck and God knows I wanted to but his dick was enormous and I didn’t want my first time to be my last time so I kept stalling until he had to go. I totally blue-balled him. It was all too intense and I didn’t even know him! He went to wash up and when he walked back into my room he crossed my cat and he asked its name. I told him and then realized I didn’t have a clue what his name was. We just did all that and didn’t even know the others name. Holy shit, who am I??
The rest of the day I spent anticipating the date with the Pixychapstick, which he applied religiously all night long, and I noted that it smelled just like Fruity Pebbles. Basically I wanted to kiss that smell right off his face so I looked at him, paused for reassurance that he wasn’t leaning away, and went in for the kiss. Accepted. He coyly pushed me away telling me he never kisses on the first date. So I kissed him again. The bus shows us and we run to get on. I sit next to him and thirty seconds after we’re moving he says, “You can put your arm around me now.” Laughing, I do exactly that. He fit there very well. When we got to the end of the line we started the fifteen block walk in the drizzle towards his house which was first on the way. We walked holding hands and pulling each other back and forth. During one long stretch of chain-link fencing we repeatedly, drunkenly, and frankly adorably fell against the fence allowing it to hold us up while we made out more. I dropped him off at his apartment and walked home in a daze of happiness. This is what I needed and on the road to what I was looking for.